Like sands through the hourglass…

This is becoming maddening, this endless era of time where I am relegated to my couch. I used to believe that if I ever became a millionaire I would be able to live the easy life and do nothing. This past month and a half has taught me otherwise.

While money is a concern, it’s not a tremendous one. I know that financially I will be OK for quite some time, however I can’t shake the sense of impending doom with each passing day. Family and friends try to impart some comfort, saying either they are not worried, or to have patience that a job will be found soon. I try very hard to accept these reassurances, but it has been difficult.

There have been some good things that have resulted in my involuntary loss of employment. For one, it has allowed me to spend a great deal of quality time with my daughter. Now, both her mother and I are on equal footing, whereas before she always gravitated towards her mother by default. That alone has made this entire ordeal worth it.

I am curious about my former employer, and the current state of affairs there. There has been ample amount of time for them to determine whether outsourcing to a foreign country was a good idea. I havent been able to get any word on it though, and it makes me wonder whether they have the remaining employees under some sort of gag order.

In the meantime, I have been filling my days with housework, artwork, some computer gaming, and studying for my Java Certification exam (not in that order). I used to belittle the concept of certifications, after the initial MCSE fiasco, and considered them next to worthless. Time has changed that, and I have the dubious honor of choosing a profession with one of the hardest certifications to get. Lucky me.

My class with Mr Elmore looms ever closer (as in next month), so the nervous jitters begin anew. My biggest fear I think is arriving, and realizing that I don’t belong there. It’s probably paranoia, but I wonder if there is a certain caliber one needs to be of before standing amid the talent that will be gathered there.

More details to come, as I am sure I will be blogging more and more on the subject in the coming days.


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